Hasita told us the story of the woman with no essence. She was a lonely woman. She was an empty woman. Her heart was filled with so much love but she was extremely sad. She forgot how to love and was left without words and completely misunderstood in the world. She could no longer take the pain she carried and threw herself off of the mountain. Hasita spent the evening telling us stories about those who have died on Makula and of the many people she has met who are in pain, suffering and hurting.
“So many people are sad and it takes a tremendous amount of focus and dedication to choose joy over sadness. The woman with no essence was beautiful and brilliant she just didn’t know all the amazing qualities she possessed. She was in a dark place. Where she was once so happy for those around her something changed. She was no longer supportive or happy for others. How could she be? There was nothing inside of her that felt happy for anyone especially herself. It wasn’t that she wished people ill intent she just could not give others what she believed she did not possess. And so her happiness was gone. Something in her essence disappeared. She had been sad for longer than she would like to admit. She walked in this world with no purpose or direction. She believed that everything she attempted she failed at. She tried to do her best always; yet nothing seemed to pay off for her. So she gave up. She didn’t want to feel… what did she give up on you ask—herself?”
What does this all mean? And who cares anyway. Do people really care?
I prayed in the snow today… I laid on my back as the snow fell over me, around me and on top of me.
I prayed in the snow today and she whispered love to me
I prayed in the snow today and she was soft, gentle, the most beautiful sunrise caressing my face
I prayed in the snow today for a joy filled life – a life of happiness and peace
I prayed in the snow today for me, for you, for us, for understanding and for forgiveness
I prayed in the snow today for healing and blessings
I prayed in the snow today and she kissed me gently, held me close and smiled
During today’s trek I heard the whispers, “Don’t quit the fight!!!”
Yamuna looked at me and said, “The problem is that you are struggling, fighting, and forcing it to happen. You can’t fight the mountain. It isn’t a battle you will win. The mountain has been here longer than all of us. Breathe. Don’t quit. Don’t give up. Yes she is massive yet she is not against you. She wants you to succeed. She wants you to see the beauty of her structure. She is rooting for you. She wants you to arrive to the top victorious. She wants you to see all of her immense beauty. Don’t quit! The mountain holds many messages… there are many secrets… many people have died. Close your eyes – tell me what you see, can you hear the whispers in the wind… keep going… Don’t quit!”
Then I heard in the strong winds…
I left too soon.
I doubted myself…
I gave up…
Follow your heart.
Don’t give up!
This is the whisper that resonates the most—TRUST. These messages sent from my guardian angels that I hear in the winds. These reminders that there is a tremendous amount of trust that is required to succeed… trust in ones strength, trust in ones abilities and trust in something larger than ourselves. It is about trusting in something outside of ourselves.
I guess in my reflection I am asking myself. Alicia, what do you trust? Who do you trust? What have you placed your trust and faith in?
I am thinking about the woman with no essence how she was done waiting… so she found peace… because what she most wanted was peace… peace of spirit… peace of mind…
So today I am holding onto this peace and remembering to TRUST!
Thank you creator for this day—I am so grateful.
Namaste. And so it is. Aché
Sending you all love, light and wishes for miracles manifested.
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Note to newcomers accepting the writing challenge! You can begin the challenge at any point. There is no right or wrong way to participate. You are not being graded or judged. This is a gift we are giving ourselves. So be gentle during this process. We are about to climb a mountain, YO! Remember that. Remember we must be present. Release all self-defeating thoughts. You can do this. I do want to remind the new climbers that no matter what day you decide to join the challenge please begin at the beginning. It’s important to prepare! Please remember to post your daily responses in my comments on my blog. Sending you all love. See you at the top of the mountain.
With all my love,