“Do you feel connected to your passion?”
This is what Yamuna asked me as were coming down the mountain.
Do I feel connected to my passion?
This time on the mountain has brought me closer to my passion and what I am here to do. Before I started this journey I began to doubt. I started questioning my every decision and choice. I was even questioning my calling, doubting my abilities and what I am here to do. I was being showed something. I was being called to see something. I was being reminded to climb, to push, to dig, to use everything… all of it. ALL OF ME.
This journey has been about more than just reconnecting me to my spirit; it has been about reinvigorating, reigniting and reminding me of my passion. This journey has been about reinvention, transformation and evolution. This journey has been about no longer punishing myself for what I have or haven’t done. This journey has been about forgiveness. Forgiving myself for beating myself up and wasting time. Truly this is what I have been reminded of. STOP WASTING TIME!
This has been the key on this journey. I am reminded that there is not a second to waste. I need to stay on course. I need to connect to my passion often, daily, the moment I wake. This journey has been about what I have discovered internally. This journey has been about me!
The old ways no longer work. There is no right way. There is no plan. there is no map. The only thing for certain is that we must hold a willingness to go where we are led and trust that our guides will not misguide us.
This is my third mountain.
I have been climbing for several years now and this is my most challenging trek yet. When I decided that it was time to leave New York I picked Nepal because I understood that I needed to go as far away as I could from what was comfortable. I needed to move away from the routine. I felt like a failure. I was so far away from my passion that I was beginning to forget what I was even passionate about. I was allowing all of these external variables and circumstances to cloud my thoughts and change my direction. Basically, I was forgetting who I am. What I understand today is that I AM what I am passionate about. I am not some idea of this. I am not some imitation of this. I am a messenger. This is why I have been chosen to write.
I did NOT choose writing… writing chose ME!
As I continue this descent I am focusing on all that will be different, and I am excited about all the newness that awaits! My every intention is to hold my passion close to my chest like my most faithful lover!
And so it is. Namaste. Aché
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With all my love,